A Diary...

A story, a journey
A graduate of life
A master of achievements and failure,
A recap of his brilliant life.

Palm trees wave on, ever so welcomly,
The fields open wide, the winds blow ever so gently,
Monumental buildings, nostalgic classrooms,
Source of brilliant ideas.

All is but too well,
Time passes by,
leaving behind a trail to follow,
remember, consider,
Proven the unexpected, did the unexpected,
Pioneer of a revolutionary move
of neo perspective, attitude, feelings,

Past, remember,
Present, appreciate,
Future, grasp,
The life principle of a graduate of life.

A story, a journey,
Of a graduate of life.

I Tried, But Useless...

TOMA...

Have u ever THINK that what you do is useless?? a waste of time??? MEANINGLESS??!
Well, i dun think so... A lot have happened in these past few days and really took a toll on myself... This is one way for me to free myself from this torture... Announcing sensitive matter that happened to me indirectly through blogging... haha...

OK... One OF it is related to feelings... it have been a roller coaster ride of feelings and emotions... Continuesly... Definitely... It was brief but it was never short of events and moments that moved my heart... I've felt love, happiness when i'm with you... Never a moment of it was dull...
Again, thx for everything...

Next, EXAMS!!! I hate exams... It makes you stay up late, studying... Well at least i did... The outcome is the next morning you'll wake up having panda eyes instead your everyday pair of eyes... haha... Funny, yes... But its not really good staying up late... Other than having panda eyes the next morning, it can also affect your complexion... Constantly sleeping late, having insufficent sleep hours can make your skin frickle... You look older too... Is that wat you want?? I highly doubt that... ME and my friends however have been forced to sleep late due to some irresponsible group of ppl who CHEATED and because of that we all have to resit chem and phy paper... So unfair... Nevertheless, sleeping late actually helps to burn your callories as you burn more fat just by staying up late... Sounds good but personally i think there are better ways of burning down those flabs... haha... EXERCISE!!!

School... Nothing much happen nowadays... In fact there's nothing happening... Urgh... This sucks... ALWAYS coming to school, wasting time... I never felt of school this way before.... Juz after the trials exam where less teacher are coming to the class... It makes you feel that staying at home is better but you can't because your attendace is still taken and it can affect your testimonies... So frustrating... Oh well, better bring my add math book everyday starting wednesday... Haha...

Sigh... What a ride... So unpredictable... A lot is happening and more will come... That's for sure... Juz hope that me and my company can survive the trials and tribulations that may come before us... Look infront all the way and never look back... Pursue the future, embrace the past...

THE BIG ONE IS COMING... THIS IS THE REAL DEAL... FACE IT... DEAL WITH IT...
THIS IS LIFE...

thx...

well, it didn't last long... nevertheless, it was nothing like i experienced before... thx for the memories.. thx for the experience and thx for the time... i felt things that i dun think i will feel anymore... thats how meaningful it is to me... the first and the last phone call... i hope you can keep the promise... i know i will...

p.s.
it will never fade, regardless of time and any challenges... its already locked and kept deep inside...

first for a very long time...

Wow... really has been a LONG time since i last updated my blog... this is due to the SPM trials examination, the raya week and plain laziness... haha... anyway, this blog will be a summary if not the whole month of previous month, part of it... ok... the trials took place during the fasting month... it was really rough having insufficient energy to study... always feeling tired and sleepy... the heat surely din help easing my fatigue... perseverance... i persevered for the whole month... forcing myself to study long hours despite my body condition... the earliest i slept was 2 o'clock in the morning... having to wake up at 4.30 in the morning to eat sahur, my eating habit was dragging me towards oblivion... really can't tahan but there's ntg i can do... i HAVE to study... first few days of puasa was tough but it gradually gets easier, easier and easier till the point where it became my lifestyle... then it was time to sit for the exams... 3 long, grueling weeks... my results is not something that you could say good but it was expected... i nvr put up to much hope on my trials exams... i know its impossible for me to score well... juz hoping can do better in the real WAR... the results which i really take pride in is my add math... seriously, i worked my ass out studying purely add math for 3 days, throw myself to literally a bed of question papers... haha... i improved and free myself from the accursed :) group... FAIL to a C... really satisfied wif that for now... haha.... but all is too well... coz some SMART students the whole form have to resit for phy and chem paper next week... really ma fan... wanna cheat oso dun make it so obvious la dummy!!! no need to point la... u know yourself... really unfair... sigh... with that my trials exam finish...
RAYA!!! haha... been waiting for this time for a very long time... 1 year... haha... but turn out to be it was not as fun as i want it to be... but luckily i get my PSP back for the whole week... WOOT... haha...stuck to my PSP for hours... haha... but one new thing that i experienced was a new way of giving kids duit raya... haha... my gradfather actually hid the money all around the family hall and asked all my kid cousins to go and searched for the money... some sort like a treasure hunt la... haha... really fun.. wished i could join but i'm a bit too old... haha... anyway, when someone get a money the house will burst in laughter... really a good memory... something to remember for the rest of my life... haha... but thats not the only thing that happened... someday during the week my last great-grand mother fell ill... it was really sudden and shocking... it was really like she was going to leave us edi as one time she really struggled in pain... i can't help it and when i know it, my cheek was wet... i cried... i'm not really the type who cries but i can't help it... i nvr had any memories wif my her husband when he was still alive... only her that i have good memories to remember... and frankly i'm not sure i'm ready to REMEMBER yet... i wanna live the time wif her... luckily she's not leaving yet... thank GOD!!!sobxx... so thats the summary of my raya... not really something i would call expected... haha... ok... then after raya... went to school... go for tui class... study at home... all my normal everyday life... as expected, after exams and hols my study mood is currently on a leave so i dun feel like studying... hopefully it come back soon... haha... crapping... lol.... so thats all... first for a very long time... haha... sorry but i'm not posting any photo even though i have tonnes of them... juz dun feel like posting...
:P

Verification...

haha... this will be a short post... just to verify some stuff... to all my friends that follow my blog, reading all my previous post would be like reading a strangers work... so emo like that... haha... so this is a verification that i'm writing all this... not being myself currently... the guy who always laugh, play around and not emo... just that leaving the school... some ppl will get emo... haha.... i get emo... i am emo only when talking bout school life... haha... i know currently post all oso like damn emo... but wei, can't help it la... haha... so, wait for some funny and exciting post next time if u find my previous post so unlike me and thx if u think they are good... haha...

Meaning of school...

standard 1 to 6... UPSR... form 1 to 3... PMR... form 4 to 5... SPM... form 6... STPM...
this is what society looks at school...
exams and grades... class and studies...
oblivious to the real meaning and and role it carries...
school means much more than juz shaping the young generation to be a successful person equipped with confidence, bursting with confidence and . . . .
thats it??? well, thats NOT it...
school means so much more than that... the key components to every single school...
students and teachers...
students spend approximately 11 years studying juz to prepare for 3 major exams...doesn't it seems too long?? well, its not...
personally, i think the time allocated fits perfectly for a student to create a bond among each other and with the teachers...
a bond that is so strong that it could last a lifetime...
i have had wonderful friends that i dun think will forget...
teachers that i will respect till i reach my golden age...
this is the true meaning of school... not merely about paper qualifications...
it is the friendship and sense of respect that exist over time...
a lot of the students in my school they say school sucks, i hate school and so on and so forth...
well, they are making a huge mistake...
we won't appreciate what we have until we lost it...
a good friend of mine told me that we have to appreciate what we have because we don't know what will happen later on in life... all we can do is hope...
for me, i start to miss the school even now, months before i leave school...
i think that i have wasted my time in high school... playing, goofing around, and hating the school admin rather than listening, seeing, and appreciating the school's pros...
always said to everyone we must think positive but the irony is i think negatively of the school... everyone does...
regardless of that, i have had my share of pride towards the school... accomplishment that no school had ever achieved... that is something... haha...
well... i learned few vital lessons while schooling and they are:
*school is great
*but not the admin... lol
*friendship tied can last a life time...
*do not take things for granted
*simple things matters the most
*people say all the time but rarely applies to themselves
*and they dun realise it
*exams and certs are important
*but experience are more significant

well... that's it...
this is a personal view... not saying that i'm right and everyone else is wrong or vice versa...

stresed, scared and excited...

stressed, scared and excited...
3 words that elaborate on how my feeling is now...
trials around the corner, few subjects in school haven't finish and leaving the prefectorial board next week...
all happening so fast that i couldn't really grasp it and slowly understand...
in 3 month time, i going to leave school...
in 3 month time, i going to sit for SPM examination...
in 3 days time, i'm leaving the board...
i'm leaving all the things that i love...
the things that i realize very dear to my heart just recently...
it is too fast...
how am i suppose to cope with this??
it is all too fast...
but then i realize... it's been too long... been ignoring and taking stuff for granted for too long...
ignoring what's real important... time...
procrastination... really my no.1 enemy... haha
to all my friends, i have only one advice...
don't procrastinate and do everything on time...
u can never know what will happen in the future...
do and say and show what is necessary before the time runs out...
time is never going to stop and wait until we finish our business...
it's forward and keep on marching forward...

*p.s.
being an emo...
this is not the real me... lol
comment plzzz...
hehe

1st post... haha

start with a laugh...end with a laugh... crapping...
anyway, this is my first post ever... juz starting so don't condemn me if the post sucks... haha...
3 weeks to spm trials and i'm creating a blog profile!!! haha... cekap...
but so much is left unsaid, so much is left undone so i tot why wait? better start now... haha...
anyway, will be posting strictly one OR none post a day... haha... depending on the day...
frens, family,someone special and myself, all stuff happening will be posted.. so till then...


~~chiow~~