A Diary...

A story, a journey
A graduate of life
A master of achievements and failure,
A recap of his brilliant life.

Palm trees wave on, ever so welcomly,
The fields open wide, the winds blow ever so gently,
Monumental buildings, nostalgic classrooms,
Source of brilliant ideas.

All is but too well,
Time passes by,
leaving behind a trail to follow,
remember, consider,
Proven the unexpected, did the unexpected,
Pioneer of a revolutionary move
of neo perspective, attitude, feelings,

Past, remember,
Present, appreciate,
Future, grasp,
The life principle of a graduate of life.

A story, a journey,
Of a graduate of life.

I Tried, But Useless...

TOMA...

Have u ever THINK that what you do is useless?? a waste of time??? MEANINGLESS??!
Well, i dun think so... A lot have happened in these past few days and really took a toll on myself... This is one way for me to free myself from this torture... Announcing sensitive matter that happened to me indirectly through blogging... haha...

OK... One OF it is related to feelings... it have been a roller coaster ride of feelings and emotions... Continuesly... Definitely... It was brief but it was never short of events and moments that moved my heart... I've felt love, happiness when i'm with you... Never a moment of it was dull...
Again, thx for everything...

Next, EXAMS!!! I hate exams... It makes you stay up late, studying... Well at least i did... The outcome is the next morning you'll wake up having panda eyes instead your everyday pair of eyes... haha... Funny, yes... But its not really good staying up late... Other than having panda eyes the next morning, it can also affect your complexion... Constantly sleeping late, having insufficent sleep hours can make your skin frickle... You look older too... Is that wat you want?? I highly doubt that... ME and my friends however have been forced to sleep late due to some irresponsible group of ppl who CHEATED and because of that we all have to resit chem and phy paper... So unfair... Nevertheless, sleeping late actually helps to burn your callories as you burn more fat just by staying up late... Sounds good but personally i think there are better ways of burning down those flabs... haha... EXERCISE!!!

School... Nothing much happen nowadays... In fact there's nothing happening... Urgh... This sucks... ALWAYS coming to school, wasting time... I never felt of school this way before.... Juz after the trials exam where less teacher are coming to the class... It makes you feel that staying at home is better but you can't because your attendace is still taken and it can affect your testimonies... So frustrating... Oh well, better bring my add math book everyday starting wednesday... Haha...

Sigh... What a ride... So unpredictable... A lot is happening and more will come... That's for sure... Juz hope that me and my company can survive the trials and tribulations that may come before us... Look infront all the way and never look back... Pursue the future, embrace the past...

THE BIG ONE IS COMING... THIS IS THE REAL DEAL... FACE IT... DEAL WITH IT...
THIS IS LIFE...

thx...

well, it didn't last long... nevertheless, it was nothing like i experienced before... thx for the memories.. thx for the experience and thx for the time... i felt things that i dun think i will feel anymore... thats how meaningful it is to me... the first and the last phone call... i hope you can keep the promise... i know i will...

p.s.
it will never fade, regardless of time and any challenges... its already locked and kept deep inside...

first for a very long time...

Wow... really has been a LONG time since i last updated my blog... this is due to the SPM trials examination, the raya week and plain laziness... haha... anyway, this blog will be a summary if not the whole month of previous month, part of it... ok... the trials took place during the fasting month... it was really rough having insufficient energy to study... always feeling tired and sleepy... the heat surely din help easing my fatigue... perseverance... i persevered for the whole month... forcing myself to study long hours despite my body condition... the earliest i slept was 2 o'clock in the morning... having to wake up at 4.30 in the morning to eat sahur, my eating habit was dragging me towards oblivion... really can't tahan but there's ntg i can do... i HAVE to study... first few days of puasa was tough but it gradually gets easier, easier and easier till the point where it became my lifestyle... then it was time to sit for the exams... 3 long, grueling weeks... my results is not something that you could say good but it was expected... i nvr put up to much hope on my trials exams... i know its impossible for me to score well... juz hoping can do better in the real WAR... the results which i really take pride in is my add math... seriously, i worked my ass out studying purely add math for 3 days, throw myself to literally a bed of question papers... haha... i improved and free myself from the accursed :) group... FAIL to a C... really satisfied wif that for now... haha.... but all is too well... coz some SMART students the whole form have to resit for phy and chem paper next week... really ma fan... wanna cheat oso dun make it so obvious la dummy!!! no need to point la... u know yourself... really unfair... sigh... with that my trials exam finish...
RAYA!!! haha... been waiting for this time for a very long time... 1 year... haha... but turn out to be it was not as fun as i want it to be... but luckily i get my PSP back for the whole week... WOOT... haha...stuck to my PSP for hours... haha... but one new thing that i experienced was a new way of giving kids duit raya... haha... my gradfather actually hid the money all around the family hall and asked all my kid cousins to go and searched for the money... some sort like a treasure hunt la... haha... really fun.. wished i could join but i'm a bit too old... haha... anyway, when someone get a money the house will burst in laughter... really a good memory... something to remember for the rest of my life... haha... but thats not the only thing that happened... someday during the week my last great-grand mother fell ill... it was really sudden and shocking... it was really like she was going to leave us edi as one time she really struggled in pain... i can't help it and when i know it, my cheek was wet... i cried... i'm not really the type who cries but i can't help it... i nvr had any memories wif my her husband when he was still alive... only her that i have good memories to remember... and frankly i'm not sure i'm ready to REMEMBER yet... i wanna live the time wif her... luckily she's not leaving yet... thank GOD!!!sobxx... so thats the summary of my raya... not really something i would call expected... haha... ok... then after raya... went to school... go for tui class... study at home... all my normal everyday life... as expected, after exams and hols my study mood is currently on a leave so i dun feel like studying... hopefully it come back soon... haha... crapping... lol.... so thats all... first for a very long time... haha... sorry but i'm not posting any photo even though i have tonnes of them... juz dun feel like posting...
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